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clubbing together a month’s worth of everything into one big gigantic post
Dec 22nd
Posted by SEV in staying.general
This is the 4th attempt I’m making at trying for a halfway decent beginning to a post. Have I really been reduced to saying such banalities? I can’t quite believe it. When I look at my front page, most of my recent posts are about movies. Reviews, basically. Most of my recent posts have also ended with a sign-off saying that I will have a proper update soon. This post, by virtue of being an “update”, doesn’t count as a proper post either. I have notes here, there and everywhere galore… none of which I have really expanded on. Hell, when I was going through my drafts I realized that I had a started a post last winter which I never got round to finishing.
I’m not happy with that start either, but its a start.
After a while of working on research topics with no apparent end in sight, I had the one-two punch of back-to-back deadlines. My first reminded me of the good old days of last year when I spent every waking moment on work. A lot of my moments were spent awake… to the extent I had a major first-year-PhD flashback when I pulled an all-nighter so as to somehow, anyhow get the paper in shape (it didn’t quite succeed, but anyway). The result of my next deadline was here for all to see… meaning I’m on track with what I expected to finish by now. The missus might say otherwise, but she doesn’t really count. She’s supposed to keep the pressure on, I’m supposed to fool around and ensure she has something to do
It is a gratifying feeling to receive recognition for what you have done. It is gratifying to realize that hell, you really have learnt some things during the course of your degree so far. It is beyond awesome to live well up to the expectations that you had set for yourself for a particular goal. Enough back-patting, all of this just means I have so much more expected of me in the time to come. There are caveats to everything you do. After all this back-to-back work, it is hard to fall back into a normal groove. Sleep doesn’t come easy, your body craves being completely spent when it hits the bed. Sleeping the sleep of the “mentally dead” is a pleasure that you shouldn’t get used to.
In a not-so-shocking update, my laptop actually failed on me 12 hours before my big day. I’m not even kidding. It says a lot that the failure didn’t make the slightest difference to my prep, but I had my revenge. I ripped it apart within the hour of finishing the proposal
I then spent a week modding it with copper and putting it back together. Happy realizations struck: (1) HP laptop architecture could not be worse, (2) I need to blog a long post about how to do what I did, (3) I should have done this ripping-apart 6 months ago. As it is, the damage appears to be too extensive despite my best efforts. I have to bake the motherboard next. You read it right. Bake. The. Motherboard.
For the first time in 4 years, I have no machine to call my own. And it sucks. Sucks. I have a machine which I could borrow so that I’m not completely bereft, but it feels like something is missing nonetheless. I’m looking forward to building a new machine from scratch, if nothing else the HP rip-apart showed me that I really miss that side of engineering. Plugging, modding, figuring out how things go together – the whole shebang. How much I rely on the cloud can be seen in how little I needed to set up on this borrowed machine. On the flip side there are some things I distinctly feel unable to do, and I’m really getting into the mood to do them (photography updating, for example). The heart wants what it can’t quite have, I guess. But then maybe I’ll end up doing it all online, and really move into the cloud. Sounds like a pipe-dream to me.
I have way too many feeds in my Reader. It took me concentrated effort to catch up with a lot of it after the weeks of work, and that was despite at least checking the basic news feeds once a day. Man! I did not see this happening when I started with RSS a long long long time ago. As the missus asked, why not just mark a bunch of them as read? Or better yet, remove ones that I’m not really “reading”. I’ve done this. I honestly believe that I need to keep up 227 subscriptions on a constant basis. I need help.
This post doesn’t even begin to start on some interesting techie things I have thought about. Will I ever concretize that stuff?
And this theme fuckin’ rocks. That is all.
tashi: the amazing, awesome (invisible) dog
Oct 4th
Posted by SEV in staying.general
As I spent most of last week getting Windows 7 to work properly on my computer (which will be in a next post – it takes a while for me to get such things together) – I completely missed the chance to post about walking my dog in Brooklyn. Oh, my dog? Tashi. Was invisible. Was awesome. Was amazing. Like everyone else’s.
So, there I was doing cool cancer research in my lab when IE mailed me about a possible stunt on Sunday Sept 27th 2009. And I, like the good little jobless-but-willing-to-travel-randomly person that I am, promptly responded. And rounded up the only available suspect that I know – TH. Whose recent start in comic-dom is well worth checking out, BTW.
Having traveled a good 90-odd minutes to reach Bergen Street from NJ, we and a crap-load of people assembled in what appeared to be an abandoned warehouse. When Charlie Todd told us about what was going to be done that afternoon, it turned out that we were indeed meeting in an abandoned warehouse. Which had once upon a time manufactured Invisible Dogs (TH is waiting for his “dog” to finish “business” alongside). Turns out IE had 2000-odd invisible dogs, and they hoped that there were 2000-odd of us around too. The prank, as Todd put it, “pretty much wrote itself”.
We picked up our leashes and headed outside to give our “dogs” a nice stroll around Brooklyn. TH and I headed up and out of the street to ensure that we spread out and gave enough people in Brooklyn a reason to stare. Initially, barely anyone seemed to notice. Once we hit the main road though, cars were constantly stopping near us to find out just what the hell we were doing. No-one seemed to buy that “it was just a nice day, and we decided to take our dog for a walk”
My dog, Tashi, was a pretty snappy golden retriever, and even jumped up at cars which pulled over (which I hope was captured by IE on video). I had to tell him off a few times (which is what I’m doing in the photo alongside). Pedestrians spent a while chatting with us trying to figure out just what the hell was going on. Most people who spoke to us (whether from a car or fellow pedestrians) were wondering why so many of us seemed to want to walk our dogs together. Was it a cause? Was it a protest? Did we not know there was no dog there? (Our response was one of amazement to this last) Most people petted, played with or even yelled out compliments to our dogs as they passed by. Smiles galore. I remember one traffic light where all the drivers at the front were honked at coz they waited too long in listening to/watching us. TH variously named his dog among other things: “Seeme” and “Unflushable” (courtesy Coupling). His dog also kept running away from him, which people loved. And I really mean that, most people thought he was walking his dog very sincerely

For our part, TH and I ensured that our dogs checked out most trees, hydrants on our route. We tried not to get into anyone’s way, didn’t let our dogs get too far away from us, and didn’t jump out at other pedestrians. Constant words of encouragement and petting was part of the game, one lady even told me off for not giving my dog enough treats! Our dogs hobnobbed a fair bit with other “dogs” walking around though. We tried not to take our dogs into stores – in the one comic book store I did take Tashi into, the owner was more than happy to let him in. She did try her best to figure out why I was so hellbent on walking him though
More than one store had quick-fix signs up welcoming dogs of “any kind and leashed”. Some put out bowls of invisible(!) water for the dogs and some had designated sitting areas for dogs. Starbucks had a field day disbursing water to us dog-walkers, and we promptly gave it to the dogs. Poor things were probably thirsty: it was a little hot and humid that day in Brooklyn
Then of course Tashi pooped all over a traffic corner. I had to use invisible gloves, wet wipes and packets to get rid of it. Amidst suitable amounts of grumbling of course. Tashi had to be controlled around the sleeping dogs, the old dogs who were half-head, the seeing-eye dogs as well. Retrievers are more trouble than they are worth some times..
Only three incidents of violence did I see. One was in Starbucks, where I stopped to get a smoothie, while TH waited outside (can’t have Starbucks messed up!). A lady walked all over a “dog” without trying very hard, to loud laments from the owner. Invisible dogs are pretty sturdy though, even if prone to jumping on the furniture. Then there was the kid in the bookstore, who tried his best to trample on Tashi – who eventually took Krypto-like action. And finally there was the limo-driver who “ran” over a guy’s dog towards the end of it all. The owner lamented the loss of the dog pretty vocally on the street – the limo driver actually freaked and took off! People were grumbling vocally about calling the police even
Eventually, an hour or so of dog-walking later, it was time to return the “dogs” and wend our way home. ‘Twas a sad farewell indeed. TH and I reluctantly gave back our dogs, and headed back home. Most of us IE-ers were in the same train back and shared smiles and comments kept coming.
All-in-all, I’m guessing Brooklynites had fun watching us.
It was fun for us watching them anyway.
Take care, Tashi. You will be missed.
i should just title this r.i.p. staying.cool
Sep 21st
Posted by SEV in staying.thoughts
Among other things, the probability that random ideas pop into my head has dwindled down to zero. Which makes it a little hard to maintain a space that was somehow meant to ensure that I do not lose touch with writing. Now that I think about it, my blog will turn 5 in a month. And here I am writing about how I have nothing to write about – for the umpteenth time. There was meant to be some kind of weekly post thing going on here – which has not taken off. A large majority of posts since then have actually pretty much been mere placeholders. So I can see that my post-count is at a steady 6-8 posts a month.
I have been struggling to find a voice/tack for my blog in recent times. Indeed, going a little further back to the start of this year I see that most posts are either (1) updates about my life, highlighting what interesting things have happened to me recently, (2) movie reviews, (3) frustration at something techie, (4) non-posts lamenting the fact that – well – I have nothing to post about, (5) random news-links to fill up space, (6) recollection/memory posts. I’m pretty sure that if I continue down a little further back to a years’ worth of posts – I’ll pretty much find the same trend. I shouldn’t be very shocked – my blog has been degenerating for some time – but I am.
Yes, yes, this counts as a non-post as well.
This absolute lack of inspiration is scary. I had this page open for most of yesterday, and what I’m writing right now is the best I could come up with. Nothing else. Nada. I can see I have over 180 subscriptions in my Reader (comprising techie, movie, random, news, comment, photo, and digg feeds). None of them gave me requisite amounts of inspiration. Any thoughts I did have about posting on a topic ended in one of two thought processes: (1) Dammit, there are a crap-load of posts about it already, (2) I really don’t know enough to write about it. Yes, this is in spite of Reading about it.
Somehow I don’t feel like throwing in the towel just yet. I keep believing the fact that my blog has not been posted to in a while will eventually result my being shamed into sheer inspired genius. Even though what actually happens is that I end up writing an absolute pointless post like this one. All this Reading, and keeping in touch with current trends – and I have nothing to say about any of them beyond the 4 line comments I put up on Reader shared items. Apparently.
Maybe that is what my posts have to evolve into. Selected shared items from my Reader with my opinion/comments appended. Would keep my blog alive. And any random thoughts that do occur to me on the myriad things I Read about are blogged. Giving reason for this space to live. Maybe some of them will expand into proper “commentary” posts too.
Now that I think about it, that actually seems like a cool idea: Reader-blogging.
I have one other idea, which involves a little more effort on my part. We’ll see how it goes.
Update: Turns out Reader’s nifty ‘Send To:’ feature comes in handy for this kind of thing. Its way nicer than using Postie, mostly because stripping out all the Google Reader header/footer in an email is hard. Plus, links to the original article are better than full-text. My only issue: Reader defaults to using the feed link (based on Google’s feedproxy server mostly) or else a bit.ly link. Both of which seem suboptimal. But the ‘Press This‘ functionality means I can play with these things however I want. Lets see how it goes. Have to remember to use it now
life continues to move along its winding trail
Sep 8th
Posted by SEV in staying.general
A break’s a break, no matter how I put it. I last blogged nearly a week or more ago, and here I am now trying to come up with good excuses to myself as to why I haven’t posted. I’m going to skip past it and focus on topic 2: “Life Continues to Move Along its Winding Trail”.
Actual physical moving/relocation has happened again, making this the 6th time in 3 years. Yes, I know. Insanity. However, I now feel like even though I have a mountain-load of crap, it compacts itself pretty well to be transported. I’ve also come one step closer to a dream of a recliner, in that I actually own one now. Yes, in all its lever-pressing leg-resting glory. It’s not the La-Z-Boy E-cliner 3000, the chair that Sit Magazine calls ‘Chair of the Year’. Not yet, anyway.
A recent incident is still demonstrating after-effects. In short, I’m without vehicular transportation. The why, how and wherefore are slightly irrelevant, so I don’t want to talk about it right now still. This lack of transportation is hitting home in interesting ways…
I currently feel as though I’ve been transported back in time to 2005, when my only mode of transport was walking. Back then I had recently acquired my iRiver H140, and it was the be-all and end-all of my existence. Now I realize that it still is, in many ways. I hook up the player, the remote, the headphones… and I walk down the road jigging every now and then to a song I know well. A lot of the songs are from back then too, so it sort of adds to the illusion. The streets have changed, the city I’m walking in is different and a lot of things have changed for me too… but somehow a little bit of the world as I knew it from 2005 appears to have transplanted itself into my life today.
My life is not instantaneous any more. I have to actually plan events a few hours in advance at least to manage to get to places. Again, reminiscent of the UK, where nothing could be done without taking into account transport time. It’s cool and sad at the same time; I don’t quite know which one to focus on.
Obviously, there are feelings of loss as well. However, I haven’t written about any of my cars, and I don’t know if I ever can. A car is one of those possessions that should not have the kind of good bye that I have given, and somehow I feel as though writing my in memoriam post is too final. They are all actually lost to me in real life, I know… maybe I will find it in me to post about them someday.
A trip to upstate New York happened this weekend – specifically to Saranac Lake where Reshma & Vin live. In short: Awefomeness. Yes, the missus is responsible for such explorations, once again proving her awesomeness. Reshma and Vin were awesome too, cooking up a storm of pancakes and uthappas as well as taking us to one place after another, each more beautiful than the previous one. We managed to see quite a bit in the time we were there: Lakes Saranac, Flower, Placid, Raquette, Tupper; Mounts Whiteface, Baker; and a whole lotta places in between.

The Adirondacks have to be one of the most beautiful places I have been to in recent times. Given the number of lakes and mountains around, I felt transported back to the Scottish Highland road trips that I have made – the colors, the pristine beauty, the wildness – all untouched by man, other than to put a road within. Miles of road with no seeming end, next to no cars, and expanses of green and blue flashing by. I can only imagine the fall colors that would explode in this area, and am really sorry that I won’t be there to see it this time round. Even now, I sit in my train wrenching myself from attempting to capture the beauty flashing past my train window. The twilight of a deep orange sunset remains, the sky and water reflecting it perfectly. Trees stand dark against the banks, occasional boats and canoes flash by as they float in rippled waters. Clouds line the sky, highlighted by the orange and providing a perfect gray to contrast it. Small islands exist in this river, and some of them can be seen to house some kind of dwellings, all of which look idyllic. I can only envy these houses, it is a peace and quiet well worth living in. A far cry from the places I have lived in my life.
Interestingly, villages and hamlets exist here where there is NO cell-phone network coverage. Yes in this 1st world country, such regions do exist. What is interesting is that there IS Wi-Fi coverage in such places. Need I say more? There was also the baby bear that got scared away as it tried to cross the road while we zoomed by. Poor thing indeed. But it lent credence to stories of bears wandering into your backyard and eating any form of food that’s available. And of course, the baby squirrel that pecked away at the nut in its paws until it realized that the 4 of us were generally behaving like boorish paparazzi, and then darted away into the underbrush.
I’ve now realized that there are a bunch of other posts I need to get writing, having procrastinated them for over a month. So off I go then.
repititive post #6875764
Aug 29th
Posted by SEV in staying.aside
No matter how many times I say it, it bears repeating: Moving SUCKS. Yes, all caps.
The only cool thing so far is that I’m driving a 10′ UHAUL truck. Heh.
stop-gap post #984328
Aug 22nd
Posted by SEV in staying.in.my.head
I had more than a few posts all done and ready for posting yesterday onwards.
Right now? I have deep deep thoughts. You know, the kind that can start a new religion ‘n stuff.
I’ll fill in the blanks later.
Meanwhile I encourage you to start reading up on the awesomeness of Scientology so that you know what you could be in for. Just sayin’.




