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Archive for January, 2007
in pursuit of dad
Jan 26th
Posted by SEV in staying.thoughts
on one of the rare productive days, where things are working, maybe inspite of my best efforts.. but nevertheless working.
its now 1:45 in the morning, i’ve spent most of my day in the lab today, and i can feel the mental exhaustion at long last. it feels good. the brain is being taxed, the way i like it
weird, possibly.. this post feels a tad unnatural at more than one level. its been a while.
i’ve been trying to get some of the many tasks assigned to me done for a while this week… but i end up having to give up in sheer frustration everyday. for once though, it seemed to come naturally to me.. maybe conditioning, maybe rest. i wouldn’t really know. its interesting though, that i find myself looking forward to such challenges. inherently challenging my mind seems to be the order of the day.
interestingly.. for all my talk of there being a method to my ‘madness’ – as i would justify to dad anyway – i find myself resorting to the basic tenets that have somehow rubbed off on me. the desk is now generally clear, the papers are always kept in a particular way on the side, i review and file away the ones that aren’t in constant use.. or need my attention. scratch paper is used, and treasured.. some of my quickest work is in referring to them. the ubiquitous coffee mug sits alongside the coffee machine in the corner. even the folders on the computer, the files… the organization i always have maintained – the mania for ensuring it is that way is more noticeable now.
unsurprisingly, i have a ‘to-do’ list on my pin up board.. just the way dad likes it. its mirrored on my lappy desktop too.. timetables hang alongside as well… as i write all this the scary thought comes to me that i seem to be following in the footsteps of the most organized person i know. dad.
somehow he seems to be coming up a lot in this post, but i can see the effect of hanging out with the guy for the last 22-odd years of my life coming to the fore. funnily, i’ve noticed a lot of such things since turning 24.
scary.
and.. i can also see that.. i have a long long way to go. thank god for that. i was worried i was growing up.
welcome, 24
Jan 21st
Posted by SEV in staying.in.my.head
its not very often that you realise how important people are to you.. and then get overwhelmed realising how important you are to them.
and so, why they are so very important.
being in raptus is probably an understatement to describe my feelings about today. it has been more than special.. it has been one of the best ever.
i really don’t want to say more, i think its weird enough that i’ve been ecstatic this long.
there could be no better way to turn 24. except maybe realising that next year is going to be… 25.
zune formation
Jan 16th
Posted by SEV in staying.aside
following up on microsoft’s blunders recently.. this is pretty much how they must have formed the zune. funny how that player barely even existed..
makes you wonder what the fuck is wrong with them
backward compatibility
Jan 12th
Posted by SEV in staying.aside
and so, microsoft decides to kick their best product (outlook, duh!) in the balls by removing support for web standards… nice.
idiots.
and this after i had pretty much decided that microsoft rocks for taking something as complete as office forward.
looks like sticking to thunderbird for the last 5 years is going to put me with having the best email client this year.
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city lights
Jan 9th
Posted by SEV in staying.thoughts
walking through the streets of new york, there is a certain thrill associated with coming out of madison square to be confronted with the heart of one of the biggest cities of the world. the first step onto times square has brought a certain smile, a certain sense of awe to me every time i have made it. you can feel the success of the city in the way it has grown: planned, laid out, professional.
compare this directly to bombay; because for the true bombayite, everything is compared to bombay. even bombay itself. the sense of craziness, the sense of being a gigantic city remains… but the lack of planning, haphazard growth that is hallmark of the evolution of bombay is very very evident. bombay has a distinctly different aura to it, the survival factor is very evident in the way the people in it live, in the way the city continues to grow despite all odds – whether it be bomb blasts or floods. new york is almost disdainful of survival, it seems to know it is meant to be the grand kingpin of cities.
london lives in a little cocoon of superiority; trying to hold on to past grandeur, assuming that it is still the centre of the earth. the sense of development is there, but there is a feeling that the city is a little past its prime. it tries to marry the old and the new, which is not always possible…
looking at them, they are, literally, the past, the present, and the future city kingpins of the world. so very similar. and so very different.
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ice skating has a deceptive grace to it. having watched/read so much about it.. even watching those on the rink right there in front of you; it seems as though its just a matter of gliding on the damn ice. which should come naturally to you. the minute you step on the ice, you might think you can be off. au contraire, its like learning to walk all over again. only this time in a perfectly rhythmic manner. the first steps on ice are alternately scary and dreamy. on one hand, you have no idea where your legs are going to go. on the other, you’re literally gliding over the ground beneath your feet. the barrier becomes the be-all, and end-all of existence… at least it was for me. it took me nearly 3 hours to be able to move in a pseudo-graceful manner over ice; with occasional moments where i would be running on the spot, or duplicating the ‘broadway dance’, trying to regain my centre of gravity.
the weirdest concept was getting up. as you do it, you’re pretty convinced there is no way this is going to bring you back to your feet without you slamming into the ice again… until you’re actually standing again. like magic.
the second time, its baby steps, but you start running much faster. and suddenly the citibank caption makes sense – ‘live life as an eight year old.’
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zooming to the top of the empire state, i wondered how it was even possible that this structure was erected in 400 days… in 1930. unbelievable. but then, everything vanishes from your mind when you take your first steps on top of the empire state, and see one of the most famous night views in the world. breathtaking on every degree of the 360 you can make around the platform; there is a glow to it… you can feel the city pulsating around you. i remembered the “flight” of the london eye that i had taken. as you reach the top, the slow unfolding of london envelopes you in its grandeur. so very typical of london, there is haze as well… but the majesty of london can be believed so much better. once again the contrast of the two is very apparent.
for all its hype though, the empire state has nothing on the rockefeller center. from entering it, all the way to the top, i was struck by two things – the friendliness of the staff (maybe due to lower crowds) and the vibe of elegance that it emanates at every point: the lobby, the swarovski shop, the target floor, the crazy show in the lift… and then you step out onto one of the peaks of manhattan, the only thing separating you from the sky being a pane of glass. the panorama that you can see, unbarricaded almost.. is unbelievable. at the final height where even the pane of glass is barely there, the wind threatens to tear you off the top and send you flying into space… you finally understand why new york will always retain that sheen to it. to think this was financed by rockefeller himself at the height of the depression.
majestic.






