its amazing how you find someone when you need them.
there was a time when i used to feel that one finds the people one needs, only when one needs them. in essence, they can be thought to fill a void.
but there is the class of people who appear.. and enter one’s life. they may not provide any purpose or reason, but they show a way. the way that you might miss. the way that you need to realise.
the way that must be found by us.
and yet, in some ways, we are all drifting away from each other. i can see it happen with me. the lack of common grounds, the loss of a connection based on which i used to relate. i find it difficult to relate, much less talk, to many of the people i know. as close as they may have been, as much as “touch” as we might have maintained.. actual conversations get more and more difficult to carry on. there seem to be some stock questions that are asked.. and then the litany of ’so what else is new ?’ starts. it doesn’t feel like we are conversing, more like we are keeping up appearances.. so that we feel ‘normal’.
there is something we are losing.. and we are doing nothing about it. and every time we rebuild our relationships, they become weaker. we start with good intentions.. and eventually life takes us over; and we give up.
till we realise what we have lost.
you can lose it, and find it. and there are times when you wonder how many chances a relationship can survive before it falls apart.
this means eventually we’ll lose the ability to make connections with other people. social hermits.
or maybe that’ll just be me.
i remember telling someone that i am an introvert.. that i’m turning asocial in the sense that i prefer the company of society less and less. the feeling of being lonely seems almost normal at times.
now that is a scary thought.
