staying.cool

hmmm.. back to blogging, back to thinking…
back to life.
ouch.

i have asked before what really exists. and also what is real. and even what is existence.
i may not have found answers, but i sure have found a heck of a lot of explanations. and interestingly, they have led to even more questions.
one that struck me today was started by Hippychix.

she made a statement on her blog that religion has done more harm to humanity than help. while that is my feeling a lot of the time as well, it did make some thoughts come to my head.
religion has probably ended up doing more harm than good. we actually still differentiate among ourselves based on this. yes, i do know people who still do this.
it, frankly, does not make sense to me. i will not say more. the topic is not worth the discussion.

she also mentioned God. one of the few entities that i too am not too sure about. so many of the things done just don't make sense.
and yes, very few religions do manage to explain whatever does happen. even if they do, they base it on assumptions that i just cannot accept. whether thinking rationally or irrationally.
however i do not believe in rubbishing something just because i've not figured it out. explanations may actually still be possible. i've just not found them yet.

one of the explanations that i do like is that of friendship. i've found that this is one relationship that can actually mean something at the end of it all. even love is supposed to have its beginnings in it.
kinda holy, one would think.

if the relation between me and God is that of a friend, then i can ask him for help. but he's not going to unless i give it a try too. unless i believe in myself enough to do something about anything.
this theory kinda encompasses a lot of the anomalies, as well as the basic idea of God.
obviously you havta believe in him, and respect him. i don't think anyone, not you, not i, would help without that. and no, you can't pay him. no-one pays friends to do favours.
that kinda puts paid to all the rituals that we do. most of them don't make sense anyway. its true as well.

why am i expounding on my theory of God of all things here ? coz its something that i've been wondering about since i read that post. as well as some other things that i observed.

as to whether the people affected by the tsunami-earthquake will ever believe in God anymore.
whether the ones who've lost their dearest could ever bring it within them to respect him as they once might have.
how some other people i know (who are in completely different circumstances) are still able to keep the faith. and want to live.

it's one of the qualities of being human. and also one of the anomalies.
but one that i am grateful for.

also one that i will think of more the next time round..

laterz

hmmmm.. i know that i've disappeared for an abnormally long time.
damn.

i can only apologize. also for not visiting all those bloggers out there, who used to probably get tired of seeing comments from me everyday. for every post. regardless of whether i had a point to make or not.
sorry.

but, interestingly, a hiatus means more comments to respond to. its an inverse relation, mathematically speaking. the less i post, the more comments i get. probability indicates that this is because more people get to read my post, before i update the page.
maybe i should reduce the frequency of my posting a little.
oh wait, its low as it is.
damn.

i don't want to give too many reasons. put it down to the non-availability of the net to me. a london trip. and the introduction of a new gadget in my hands as well.
the london trip was pretty amazing. i got to see the sherlock holmes museum at long last, which was a dream for a sherlockian like me. i finally went to the madame tussaud's exhibit. again, an experience that i'm probably going to have the next time round as well. i got to see the hyde park and the national maritime museum in the places given to me, but not the others.
however they've been added to the list for next time. due to various reasons i had to cut the trip short this time.
but london is a drug that i'm going to need again. soon.
i can't wait.

the most unforgettable sight for me was the big ben at night. chiming the hour of nine. something that i was awed at. don't ask me why.
the thames at night.
the first glimpse of trafalgar square. and the towering statue of nelson looking towards westminister.
the craziness that is london.
i've been in mumbai for a long time. and i finally realized what is meant when they say that each city in the world has its own spirit. its own life.
a different feeling envelopes you.

all i could think of was that: there are so many left to see..
will the journeys of life ever end ? can one ever say that one has seen everything ?
never.
each place has its own uniqueness. what is sad is that so many of us don't get to see them all.

what is sadder is that there are some of us who don't want to see them.
which is something that shakes me.
how can one, being human, not want to explore ? not want to discover ?

not experience more ?

i don't know this. but i do know that i want to see it all. feel it all.

live.

laterz

hmmm..interestingly, the lack of sleep on my part is not just frowned upon by my dad.

and again, my posts are becoming erratic, as in becoming sporadic again. hopefully this will change in the near future, when my net access becomes easier.

anyway, on a personal note, i am currently in london; decompressing in a very different way.
i do not know if any of you have actually been here, but if you have; do let me know of any out-of-the-way attraction in london that people do not usually go to. i promise that i will do my damnedest to go there.
and if i don't, well… i'll be damned !
i know. that was a bad one.

which reminds me of asimov. a story of his called 'jokester'.
it was about understanding the nature of humour. of laughter. as in, what really makes us laugh ?
his theory was that it was an alien device for understanding the human mind. like how we use mazes to understand some brain devices in rats.
mine is that its the work of the parasite that humans have carried in their heads for centuries, but don't know anything about.
scary in either case ? well, that was the idea you know.

how am i talking about this ? coz of that bad pun that i cracked a few lines above.
i know the logical reaction to that is: “he's crazy.”
but that was the reason for the blog anway.
read, always read.

everything that i tell you guys is generally already there. its all stuff that you've seen, heard, felt before.
i'm just trying to give you all a little bit more creativity.
a little bit more of the magic.
that we all somehow miss in our lives.
myself included.

i do not know how well i am succeeding, but it certainly helps in quelling my urge to let my hair down everyday.

i hope it does the same for you.

laterz

hmmm.. i guess it's back to the daily grind. rather the daily de-pressurizing.

do forgive me if this particular post meanders a bit. i'm currently working in a day where i have not slept in 24 hours, and am listening to weird music, to say the least.
see ?

but this has gone to show me that humans can live any kind of conditions. the brain is able to adapt to the circumstances. whatever they may be.
for example, my attitude towards sleep.

frankly speaking, i sleep well below what i should. i believe an ideal amount is about 6 or 7 hours.
and me ? 4. tops.
why ?
ah. therein lies the beauty of my theory.
the brain rests better when its drained. so does the body. this is fact.
so, i drain my body everyday. as well as the brain. recharging, so to speak, takes less time too.
don't ask me how. i've found that its true.

its quite weird.
thus, the time i spend sleeping is completely used in recharging my “batteries”. no phases. nothing. just rest.
i guess its like some kind of ultimate efficiency thingy.

i don't know if i am alone in this. but i've seen that a lot of the planet spends its time in sleeping. which i find weird.
simply put, the time we have is not enough to see half of what exists. not enough to do what we can.
not enough to live life.

ironic ?
indeed.

and so, i must forgo sleep. we have enough time to do so, when we're dead.
remember: “i'll sleep when i'm dead” ?
something to live life by ? or to die for ?

i can't tell. my brain has reached exhaustion point.
i never did know when to draw the line.

man, talk about a shitty post !

laterz

yes, that's right.

i'm back.

with a vengeance.
yes. the inquisition is over.
thank you all for the wishes.

right, my book of observations has many jotted down.. but i don't want to spoil the mood. lets leave this personal.
yet another personal post.

oh well. you guys will get used to it.
i'm taking off now. into the stratosphere.
logically. my exams are over !

ecstacy.

laterz

hmmm.. it has been a while since my last post.

5 days to be exact.
put it down to the bane of studying for exams.
and yes, that means that i have exams and that till the 15th of this month, this is probably going to be the pattern that will be seen.
oh well, good for you.

not that i have anything against exams. by all means, there should be a way of gauging one' s abilities.
it's just that the question is - 'why now ?'
later. anytime. not now.
i wanna have fun now.

but one rarely gets exactly what one wants. and that's the case here too. that necessarily means that this post will be limited. the world will have to live without my profound observations on life. on love. and everything.
and that includes all of you.

rest assured, all thoughts will be noted down, and you will have to endure them all at a future date. just because i am studying, does not imply that i am not going to think. that is a process that i hope will never cease.
so, you are relieved from attention. and can go have fun.

just woozy around here in a week or so, and i'll have something for you to think about.
till then, i am going back to nuclear physics. and ultrasound. and audiology. and biomechanics. and many other subjects that i find interesting due to some genetic quirk in my brain.

i knew that something was wrong with me somewhere.

at least its only with some thing as non-essential as my brain..

much much much laterz