Archive for October, 2004

hmm… yet another facet was revealed.. frustration.

ideally speaking, man should never really get frustrated.
it doesn’t make sense.
man is designed to be one of the ultimately evolved creatures of the planet; with a thinking ability that is yet to be matched by any artificial device. add mobility and flexibility to that; and you have one pretty amazing peice of equipment.

then “why do i get so frustrated all the time?”

simple. potential.
have any of us really acheived our potential ? have any of us really plunged into the depths of our consciousness and discovered our true selves ? have any of us really tapped our true greatness ?

NO.
a few have actually managed to reach some level of acheivement, but if you ask me, they are capable of so much more.
sure, scoff. scorn.
but think about it.

i’m not saying we’re not trying. from the way i see the world today only two things come to mind.
either the people are not trying enough or they’re not trying correctly.

judgemental ?
i don’t think so. for you see, i am not condemning them.
analyse yourself. have you really tapped your potential today ?

people have fallen into the rut of following a particular routine and then “sticking” with it, so to speak. all the time. they never think of trying anything different.
these are the people not trying enough.
other people are trying. and trying enough. BUT they’re not trying in the direction they should be going. a direction where they could have done so much better.
[ i myself am a case in point. refer my first post..
and hence i do not condemn ]
these people are not trying correctly.

but this latter point is not strong enough. after all, if it’s only a direction in which they could have done better; then what reason is there is say that they won’t do well in their chosen space ? as in now ?

again i’m not saying they won’t do well currently. i’m only saying that these people should never forget the direction that they didn’t take.
the path not taken, so to speak.
that goes to prove one thing.

frustration arises due to a person unable to figure out what to do on his chosen path.
but then a person has made a choice about the path. and once a choice is made, there is nothing for it but to back it all the way.
but only if the choice was completely thought through.
once regret/rethinking enters the picture, you’re only going to get frustrated.
and so not realise your true potential.

the human is a completely anomalous person. probably one that will never really be explained. we can try.
and thus realise ourselves.

so… go figure !
yourself. each other.

laterz
[p.s. thank you for the comments so far.. some questions were asked.. esp in the first blog. i have replied where necessary and appropriate.
pls do leave ur website/blog so i can reciprocate..]

hmm.. think of this as a kind of ‘guide to the universe’.

seriously.
because if you think about it, i’m actually cataloguing observations on the universe.
how am i different from all the millions of bloggers out there, many of whom are generally doing this for the last few years ?

i never said this was.

that referral to the universe..
this gigantic place we’re supposedly living in, which, for lack of a better word, we call the universe. extending to dimensions unknown. into regions that can’t even be imagined.
et al.

i don’t know if you noticed that i mentioned supposedly.
supposedly is right. after all, ‘the matrix’ could be true.
or we could be mental energies flitting from one freeze-frame to another; which our brain rationalizes as the passage of time.
we could even be completely.. as expected – a tiny planet in a corner of one of more than a million galaxies with a few blillion organisms existing on it.
who think they’re probably one of the only intelligent species in the universe.

it is possible that we are just mice for a far superior race, who’ve reared us in a gigantic maze called earth to monitor what happens.
it is also possible that [shudder] that these billions of organisms are right.

what are we ? do we really matter in the long run ? how do the many things we do everyday make any difference in the working of this universe ?

ironically, it is possible that, in all this craziness, the most insignificant of things is all that matters. as in the best thing that we could be doing in our life; is falling asleep at night !

i know that this is very cynical.. but then it is possible. and that gives rise to further cynicism. disillusionment. disenchantment.
frustration.

but that has not meant that we’ve stopped living. on the other hand, we’ve tried to prove that we’re better than any other.
it may not be any use but we do it anyway.
why ?

you got me there..

as the title asks.. does it all really matter?

laterz
p.s. there will be only 2 posts over the entire weekend.. sorry for all the inconvenience & all that..

hmm.. faith, belief in god, love, hope.. this is starting to sound suspiciously like a new religion.

i hereby state that this cannot be the basis on which to start one.

all i'm trying to do is to state some facts, observations.. that if people started understanding.. the world could be a better place..

could i said. not would.
as herein i recognize the basic unpredictability of life and the universe.
chaos. never knowing what is going to happen next.
sound familiar ?

we don't know what's going to happen next. so we do not enjoy what is happening.
i know that this is again a repeat of the oft-said 'stand and stare'.
have you ? have you ever observed what is going on around you ?

the leaves that blow past your face on a windy day.. the stark moonlight that one sees on a full-moon night..
the laughter of friends.
the smile on one's face at having deja vu with something good.
the thoughts that one gets one seeing a couple.. and knowing exactly what they're feeling.
ever noticed the person sitting opposite you in a bus and wondered what his life is ?
ever wondered how the people you meet everyday; each lead their own lives..
each having his own reasons to live… each their own reasons to cry.
each has his own universe.

it boggles the mind. we are a race of over seven billion people, and each one has their own lives..
the ultimate parallel universe concept : life on earth.

and yet, they are all interconnected.
the person you say hi to everyday, may just be waiting for that before leaving on his daily routine.
the 3 words that you may say to the street corner beggar may be the only ones he's had that day.

amazing how the simplest of things can make so much of a difference in another persons life.
do something.. get something done in a day that might make a difference to another person. it might lift their spirits. it might make them happy.

to be continued.. after i understand how gamma rays can be used to do something else other than kill cancer.

imagine that: a gamma laser in my arms..
[not a very re-assuring picture]

laterz

hmm..
[if nothing else to keep with the grand tradition of 5 blogs]

the nature of God was seen.. but that was an example for the point that i am trying to illustrate.
the nature of man's thinking.

once again i am re-treading ground.. but again.. i am re-treading towards the path of understanding.
that's what they all say.
if you take something as common as hope.. as common as anticipation.
as common as want.
what does man do?

he simply forgets that in order to achieve something, he must do something about it.
or vis-a-vis, he only does something about it.
a key factor called faith is missing.
from the immortal pages of 'the alchemist', one has the words.. i paraphrase..

read it again.
it didn't make sense to me too.
but then, i decided to blindly follow.
and it worked. like a charm.

i will add some words to the above: when one wants something more than anything else in the universe, he will do anything to get it as well.
but he must keep the faith.
why ?
why does one breathe ? because one must.
a similar answer : because one must.

try it.
scott adams, in his book 'the dilbert future' ( a book i highly recommend.. its completely different from all his other books), refers to something similar: we've both arrived at the same conclusion. he arrived at his by turning the universe on its head, i reached mine by reading a book.
it doesn't make sense. i know. it goes against all the logical(!) analysis i've done so far. i know.
its crazy.
at last. at last.

craziness. that's the key. it actually explains most things.
but its not an end to the discussion.
its a beginning.

reached the end of my day though..

laterz

hmmm.. in succession we've examined the nature of the universe, the nature of man's existence and finally the nature of some of the reasons that that man still exists..

these have all been done in part.. agreed..
however we have reached a point in analysis, where we cannot go any further due to the simplest of reasons:
lack of data.

no data means no further analysis is possible.
in our case however, its not a matter of NO data.. its more a matter of there not being enough data to analyse for us.

why do i stop ? why is it that i do not simply gather the required data?
because the data is not exactly visible to us right now.
at least its not visible to me. too much chaos.

possibly a break on topic will allow some change in the thinking that we are using. or at least an enhancement in it.
[that long prologue was basically to allow me to change the topic]

we're now gonna talk about the nature of man's thinking.
for example, the concept of GOD.
i am no atheist.. i do believe in the existence of a higher power and all that..
however i do not believe that that higher power is the all-powerful being that we think he is.
it's my opinion.. you are entitled to yours.
the reason i think of him this way is because of the inconsistency of his nature, so to speak.
every religion says that it's path is the one true path to attainment of God, self et al
what is the truth? is there really only one God?
is his nature different from different perspectives ? (e.g. the blind men describing an elephant)
why does he let so many religions say the same things basically.. and still allow humans to kill one another over their differing paths ?
why is it that we all don't get everything we want?

questions.. questions..
a simple answer: because he chooses to.
a simpler answer: he does not exist.
i personally go for the simple answer.
why ?

my answer (it is a little complex).. it's based on the fable of how God carries us in times of trouble and walks with us at other times.
to me, this made a lot of sense..
to me this said only one thing: God is a friend.
and friends help you in times of need.. are just with you at other times..
but they can't do everything that you want. not because they cannot do it.. more probably because they're not able to.
besides, its only when you do something that God can help you. he can't kick start it.. but he can give that little push needed when you require it.

gettit ?
chew on that.. i'll go get something to chew on too..

laterz

hmmm.. we've entered the fourth instalment of this series.. and i'm not too sure that people are reading this stuff.

but then that's the point of a blog.. ppl write watever they want.. with no expectation of people reading, commenting, understanding.. at all.
at least i don't harbour any..
should i ?
it leads to the next question that one has..
if life is meaningless without purpose.. and if the world is mad..
does hope play a role anywhere ?

hope.. is what is supposed to make the world go round..
or is that love ?
is there a difference ?
what is love ?
there is a question that has been tormenting man for centuries too.
it has variably classified as a misfiring of hormones, the effect of hormones, the effect of pheromones on the brain, synapses going wrong..
and most importantly – a feeling
it can't be classified.
similar is the case with hope.

could it be that hope is just love for what is to come ?
wait.. let me try to explain that further…
when we await the future, with an optimistic outlook.. this means that we expect something that we want to happen.. it's called having hope..
we want that thing to happen. we need it to happen.
plain and simple hope.
when we love someone.. we wait for them.. we need them.. it is a concept called true love.
something that does not happen to everyone.
we never feel bad with them.. that they're there for us anytime is wat keeps us going.
we're basically hoping for that feeling of comfort..

wait.. did we just go back to hope ?
this is getting a bit too complex.. we'll drop it for now..
maybe once we've figured out some more.. we shall continue..
hope for that..

laterz